today went for choir.. my sunday one.. the vocal consort one.. quite ok lah.. i finally know my part.. pathetic right? hahaz.. was like putting the more difficult ones into my melody composer and played it over and over and over again.. but although i sound damn wierd on its own.. it sounded really good with the other sections.. man.. i hope my voice becomes better.. couldnt reach the higher notes lately.. manz.. damn..

hm.. today i made my lunch.. *surprise surprise*.. my dad was having lunch with his students.. and also because he was having class.. so yeah.. so i looked through the cookbook.. then found this macoroni and cheese.. then followed it.. and modified.. and after it.. it tasted like it came out of a box.. man.. i rock.. hahaz..

hm.. realised tt im really out of the vocal consort.. its like.. i dun have a 'friend' of my own age-group.. for example.. juit lian has debbie.. debbie has thoedore.. sara has marcus and evelyn.. marcus has thoedore.. yeah.. they also have frens of different age-group.. but at least they are together.. manz.. i feel akward in the choir.. yeah.. at least i have priscilla.. but the age group is really great.. hm.. manz.. y am i in S2? hm.. i realised that i dont know how to mix.. i mean.. you pple out who know me.. probably wont belive it.. but when i meet new pple.. i tend to become really shy..

i mean like.. i'm usually afriad to do anything.. or be myself when i juz know someone.. b coz i'm scared that this perosn wont like me smth.. i dont know.. hm.. and the thing is that i dont go up to people and try to be friends with them.. (ok.. i do.. but here its a different case).. i mean like in vocal consort.. all they talk about.. is.. music? hm.. ok.. i love music.. but i dont talk about music.. hm.. maybe simply b coz im a loner or smth.. hm..