ok.. im finally gonna talk about mr toh.. hm.. well.. lets start from when i first saw him..

that was last year.. when mr kwei's choirs were like gathering at siglap south cc to practice for genting competition.. then it was like the TK pple were kinda.. colourful? got pple wear home clothes.. then got die hair one.. then their conductor came along.. hahaz.. look like ah-beng or smth.. then like.. hm.. ok.. lets see what he can do lor..

then he conduct the TK pple.. (didnt really notice him much.. was too busy watching marcus.. hahaz.. then got that brilliant song "Ondeh Ondeh'.. really loved it.. hahaz.. it was so cool..)..

then mr toh came to teach/conduct us this yr.. helping us for our concert.. then the first day he came.. i remember tt he made quite a number of funny remarks.. then always got pple laughing.. then he was learning pple's names.. the commitee.. stuff liddat..

then fast forward this these two months.. during the hols.. i skipped a couple of practices.. sorry to say.. that one of the reasons was that i didnt want to go.. choir didnt have tt appeal it had for me last yr.. i dunno.. juz felt that i wasnt that important anymore in choir.. i mean like.. there were better singers like deb and jl.. the choir wouldnt really make a diff with or without me..

i only joined choir in sec2.. i feel that.. with only one yr and 6 mnths training.. i should be sounding like the sec2s.. no offense.. but when i sound like the sec2s.. airy and stuff.. pple criticise me.. i dunno.. i feel that the sec3s now have more experience then me.. shoudnlt they sound better then me.. its was because of the pple's supposed expectations and criticism which made me strive to be better.. be someone like debbie.. so now.. i feel that at least i have a sec3 standard.. not simple at all.. and when i become airy.. i get frustrated.. when i cant reach the high notes.. i wonder.. how come debbie and juitlian and jane can reach it.. y cant i?

then i'll start feeling useless.. manz.. it really sucks..

another reason is my failing results.. and my parents displeasure in my overly committing spirit to choir.. manz..

ok.. sorry.. back to mr toh..

then there was this once.. i didnt come.. kathleen help me say tt i was sick.. jl said tt i had sore throat.. so.. then i was like.. yeah.. ok.. im sick.. then later kathleen told me that mr toh sort of broke down and was like telling the choir how he wants the choir to stand together.. all tt stuff.. then he sang that 'can u hear me' song.. manz.. when i come for choir.. nth happens.. when i dont.. something bigs always happens.. (like the sectionals i didnt turn up.. everyone seemed to be in a bad mood.. then this thing.. the mr toh one.. manz.. )

then the next practice i went.. mr toh out of the blue asked me.. r u feeling better? took me a while to remember that i was sick.. and i was like going.. er.. yeah.. manz.. i felt so so so god-damn guilty lor.. i was like.. wad the hell.. y did u believe that i was sick??? y muz u care?? manz.. sorry mr toh..

haiz.. then tt time he gave sara, deb and me a ride to siglap south cc from meridian jc.. he was so cool.. honestly.. tts all im saying.. its was cool.. hahaz.. manz.. then when i finally started thinking.. hey.. mr toh's a great guy.. he leaving us.. manz.. haiz..

sorry.. dunno wad im driving at.. juz felt like writing an entry 'bout him.. so.. i did.. actually by right i wasnt ABOUT him.. it was mostly about wad i felt about him and wad are the memories about him.. but wad the heck..

so juz wanna say.. mr toh.. u rock.. u really do.. im not saying it for the sake of saying it u know.. take care and have faith in wadever u do.. and sorry for the times that i might have said or done things tha have hurt u.. sorry..