hm.. i realised that my view of css choir is always changing.. and im always discovering new things.. or should i say.. re-discover? hm..

manz.. i think im mostly to blame.. i joined a yr late.. so.. yeah.. couldnt really fit in.. then started hanging arnd sec 1s then.. hm.. but i realised that i had to have at few a couple of friends from my own batch.. frens which i can hang out with.. hm.. i have jane, mel, renuka.. i dont even know whether some pple i treat as frens treat me as frens.. i dunno.. hm..

oh yeah.. i think i got sort of this long story of y tkss and css are like.. rivals.. i think it started all the way back when there was this time when tkss got a gold in SYF.. and css only got a silver.. then somehow someone started a rumour saying tt the tkss were like.. hm.. looking down on css or smth.. then that was when things became sour.. then so happen they went to hawaii together.. then the tension was very high.. hm.. then another time they went to bangkok together.. then kena food poisoning together.. then got this tkss guy who vommitted on the stage.. then it was in the news in singapore.. hahaz.. then got some css boys took advantage of the situation adn made fun of the boys.. hm..

got tt from hafiz.. *grin*

anyway.. i do recall got some senior who said tt tkss and css relationship was quite good.. during the bangkok time or smth.. hm.. *shrugs*

also.. i would like to get this/these thing(s) clear.. i dont HATE choir.. neither did i add justinian into a conversation with mr toh and then started complaining/bad-mouthing choir.. and made mr toh heartbroken then or smth.. like i said.. i dont HATE choir.. i have an average neutral feeling abt choir.. smths i love it.. smtimes i dun.. i joined choir b coz i loved singing.. not b coz of any other reasons.. i choose choir over drama b coz i loved singing more than acting.. b coz i felt that i could sing loudly anywhere and not feel ashamed abt it.. but not with acting..

its juz the feeling of seeing choir going down.. and not being able to do anything abt it.. that makes me feel sucky.. i feel useless.. i dunno.. i feel that in choir.. within sections.. we should be helping each other.. regardless how old u are.. correcting other pple's mistake nicely..(as in in a nice manner)..

i feel tt there should be this learning spirit within the choir.. like.. going after a trainer and asking whether is there any way of improving oneself.. i dunno..

haiz..