today had choir.. on the way back.. cornelius kept talking and pestering renuka who sat beside.. then i was getting annoyed.. and ok.. i tolerated for quite some time.. and i was like trying to let him know y pple get so pissed off with him.. and he didnt want to listen or even get the hint tt i was getting pissed with him and continued toking..

   then i was like goin.. r u like neglected at home..?.. then he suddenly said seriously.. dun ever insult my mum.. ok.. then the next couple of things i did wasnt very nice.. and cornelius got pretty mad at me and.. cried..

   ok.. it really wasnt nice.. and i sort of found out only then tt cornelius was form a single parent family.. and.. i guess i should understand y he was behainvg this way and y he defends his mum so much.. but i didnt know before.. so.. yeah..

   ok.. the first thing which came ot my mind when i first saw corny was tt he was like justinian.. attention-seeking..

   justin sort of toned down in his behaviour after tt trip to genting.. which i good.. coz i sort of showed him tt there are pple who care lor.. and he was really nice up there..

   the last SCO practise.. justin told me to get to know corny.. to stop him from becoming the old justinian.. coz he sort of saw himself reflected in corny.. he asked me to help corny.. the way i helped him lor.. but the thing is.. im no superwoman.. and the only reason i cared for justinian was b coz..
1)he was in sorprano.. i could see wad was happening to him more clearly.. 2)i felt tt the pple he held dear to him didnt really care abt him..
3)i felt tt there was more to it than juz attitude prob..
4)he still had a chance to change

   corny is a whole different case.. corny is more action.. justinian was more of wide annoying smiles (im sorry.. hahaz..) and really annoying screams and stuff i cant remember.. corny is juz tok.. and physical contact.. ok. justinian used physical contact too.. but i guess i dun really care how corny turns out.. if he wants to ruin his life.. he can..

   i also guess its b coz i really dun know how i 'changed' justinian or whether i was me at all.. probably it was juz justinian maturing.. so.. yeah..

   i dunno.. i feel tt.. corny.. haiz.. its another case like justinian's..

   justinian.. do u know tt for months i was thinking of y u were behaving the way u were.. and a lot of pple were like telling me.. its juz the way u were.. but i really thought otherwise.. (sorry argh.. read too much chicken soup.. try it!) and i was trying to get u to trust me.. which was quite difficult coz u were always sticking with deb.. eventually.. i guess it really was the genting trip which brought u closer to me and jane and kathleen.. (coz u were the only guy who was allowed in a girls room - jane and my room).. then i sort of recall telling u tt if u wanted to come with us (kat, jane and me..).. u had to behave or smth.. yeah.. but it was fun hanging out with u lah.. hahaz..

   hahaz. dunno wad else to say liao.. haiz..