today was css open hse.. then its like.. i had to go for choir.. rocket launching and art shop.. so i very busy lor..

ok.. i got really pissed today.. coz.. when i was pumping air into the rocket.. EE CHEONG was making sexual comments about me loudly.. until this parent and kid were like.. squirming.. then after i pump.. somebody wanted to launch it.. so i say ok lor.. then i step aside.. making sure that the parent and kid could see.. then EE CHEONG said to move my fat ass aside so that they could see.. again loud enuff for the parent and kid to hear..

after that.. KY came over and then she ask whether we're launching.. then i said.. Ky.. its better that your guest dont come and watch.. coz EE CHEONG was hurling vulgarities and sexual remarks like no body's business.. then ee cheong come over and asked wad happened.. then i juz look away.. then i continue complaining abt him to KY and he juz denied it lor.. so KY summarised it by confirming with me tt there was no launching lah.. and i said yeah.. then she walked away..

then ee cheong walked over and asked me wad i said to her.. then he guessed that i told her no launching and then he said wah lao.. then he ran after her i think to explaing stuff.. then after tt.. he came back with black face.. and told sre abt it.. then its like.. i dun remember wad happened next.. but wad i did remeber was that i juz walked off from them.. like.. those how lian pple do.. with their noses stuck high up in the sky.. yeah.. smth liddat..

then after.. i was refilled my rocket and then pumped in air into it.. then its like EE CHEONG and SREYANSH.. and some other guy.. they were juz standing in a straight row some feet away from me.. whispering discussions.. and then itslike.. i will pump abit.. then rest a bit. let the air go inside.. then its will take a long time wad.. some more i pumping 37 pumps.. then suddenly.. i heard EE CHEONG say," is she trying to commit suicide?"

so i turned to him.. and even though i was having a cold war with them.. i said.. i heard tt ee cheong.. then he juz hide his face behind sreyansh's back.. then when i launched it.. it flew from one diagonal of the field to the other diagonall.. it was beautiful..

then they guys went crazy and went to get a teacher.. then they found mr chng or somebody.. then its like.. they were like going.. it was successful.. WE did it..

now.. pause one moment.. wad "WE" ?!?! was there ever a "WE" ?!?! its was only "ME".. coz u pple were standing at one corner toking bad abt me.. wondering whether me rocket could fly.. and u told about "WE"?!?

sreyansh.. i dun mind sharing fame with u even if u nv contributed to the thing.. like our maths story.. the one we got first in.. i dun mind staying 2 whole nights pasting every single thing in tt book.. and then only putting ur name there on the cover on the date of submission so that u wont have to do one..

but u didnt care abt my feelings.. and u just assumed that ee cheong was right.. i have always supported wad u have dreamed for.. when u were arguing and even when u were wrong.. i actually helped u in tt arguement.. coz i CARE.. ok?

then after that.. i dun remember wad happened after tt.. but i do remember.. tt when i went to pick up my rocket.. and u guys had already finished pumping and were waiting for me to get out of the way.. when suddenly.. sreyansh made this action by which is the result if the rocket were to hit u in the rocket.. with loud 'ahhh' sounds and then u laughed..

the first thing that came to my mind was that.. u were demonstrating wad was happen to me if u all were to launch the rocket..

and the thing that i wanna know now is.. WAS IT REALLY THAT WAY?? PLEASE TELL ME THATS ITS NOT TRUE.. PLS..

after that.. i juz mentally broke down.. i juz wanted to hide away.. and cry and drown myself in my tears.. iwanted to go home.. so i went up to choir.. and said.. i wanted to go home.. and that if i didnt go home soon.. i would kill someone.. (and that someone would have been sreyansh.. or ee cheong..)

eventually they did let me go.. and then i look for vithya.. i cried out to her.. and basically calmed down near the drama room..

after that.. i helped the drama pple wash the paint out of their hair and necks.. and even though im not part of them.. i feel a certain sense of trust between them and warmth.. something i have not felt in choir.. its like.. they are all there b coz they have a certain common love.. DRAMA.. and its this common love which brings these different pple together to work as one..

wish it would be like tt in choir

basically.. with tt short 2 hrs with drama.. i felt.. happy.. really happy.. like i was part of them..

after tt.. went to Jp with V and H.. then something really stupid happened.. i wont tell u.. hahaz.. find from them urself..

juz hope tt CH wasnt there to see me acting like a fool.. ha..