its not worth killing yourself
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*NC16.. lol
*8th May
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*3/1
*choir [sop]
*soccer
*striker for girls
*defender for guys
*roller-blading
*skateboarding
*shopping (ha)
*doodling
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***to get A1 for chinese
***to get A1 for a maths
***to get A1 for english
***to get A1 for maths
***to get A1 for biology
***to get A2 for physics
***to get A2 for geography
***to get A2 for combined humanties
***to get B3 for chemistry
***help out xingnan choir
***take drama as sub at VJC
***study at NTU/ overseas
***get a beetle car
***FASHION DESIGNER
my past
07/01/2004 - 08/01/2004
08/01/2004 - 09/01/2004
09/01/2004 - 10/01/2004
10/01/2004 - 11/01/2004
11/01/2004 - 12/01/2004
12/01/2004 - 01/01/2005
02/01/2005 - 03/01/2005
03/01/2005 - 04/01/2005
04/01/2005 - 05/01/2005
05/01/2005 - 06/01/2005
06/01/2005 - 07/01/2005
07/01/2005 - 08/01/2005
my reads
haikal : far away now
kathleen : my twin sis
jane : my ma
julie : my real sis
samantha
suk mun : partner-in-crime
debbie
colby
juit lian
luo sheng
sarah lah
hui ru
li ru
see kai
yan shan: crazy partner
cheng jie
kuan hui
thomas
shasha
ruiming: gotta read dis
aidil: sax player
joshua
kang sheng: nice shoes
weixue: old classmate
wan xin
hsien lee: fashion designer
fang yi: WET!!
zhao perng
reuben
si meng
yu han
tze chee
stanley
geraldine
ruth
carrie
deyang
farhan
theng loke
ying chen
qiu qun
mel c: cool hair
jeffery
mr toh
guy, interrupted
cathy
ginger
marina/ chloe
tiawanajane: lemons?
madison
kanika
pablo: i like this guy!
adam
blueskeleton: cool site with pics
katt
jaimekate
crap
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what i have learnt
Saturday, December 25, 2004
to all the Christians and Catholics out there
im not making fun of God
seriously
even though i sound as i am
im not
believe me
i pray that everyone believe me
Amen
im not making fun of God
seriously
even though i sound as i am
im not
believe me
i pray that everyone believe me
Amen
i think God is wonderful
he gave us life
he gave us nature
he gave us knowledge
he gave us individualty
best of all
he gave guys guys with
way-cool aTtituDes
aTtituDe problems
and
get into loads of *censored*
Thank You Lord.
In the name of Jesus Christ
Amen
he gave us life
he gave us nature
he gave us knowledge
he gave us individualty
best of all
he gave guys guys with
way-cool aTtituDes
aTtituDe problems
and
get into loads of *censored*
Thank You Lord.
In the name of Jesus Christ
Amen
you know what?
recently, i have had the sudden urge to read the whole bible once through.
so cool right?
Amen
recently, i have had the sudden urge to read the whole bible once through.
so cool right?
Amen
am thinking of going to the city harvest church near my hse
got a lot of CSS pple go there
may God help me with my decision
convince my mom to let me go
Amen
got a lot of CSS pple go there
may God help me with my decision
convince my mom to let me go
Amen
merry christmas to all of you out there.. hope you're all having a warm christmas and go to sleep with a filled tummy..
to all those people who have faced difficulties in lifes or are facing them now.. keep on fighting..
God is watching over you..
merry x'mas 2004
God bless you
Amen
( sorry to all my readers.. suddenly juz feeling a bit religious and sentimental..)
to all those people who have faced difficulties in lifes or are facing them now.. keep on fighting..
God is watching over you..
merry x'mas 2004
God bless you
Amen
( sorry to all my readers.. suddenly juz feeling a bit religious and sentimental..)
Sunday, December 12, 2004
man.. i really suck..
seriously.. and i've got a frigging low self esteem..
this is a post which i wrote on the 1st of august this yr.. but didnt post it.. here it is..
"hm.. ok.. lemme tell u all the sick thots i've had since a long time..
i used to have this hamster.. and its like.. sometimes.. when i hold her.. i would have this sick feeling of anting to squeeze her until blood spurted out and her eyes poped out.. until her bones snapped and cracked.. and then i would let go off her.. coz i was scared that i really would do it.. there was this once.. when i really did try.. and then i saw her eyes sort of popping out then i freaked out.. then i put her back into the cage..
there was this period of time when i really wanted to kill someone.. and i had all the steps thot out.. and how i would hide the body.. and cover up my tracks..
sometimes.. i want to drop something which is labelled "poison" on it to a drink of my friends and tyhen see wad would happen to them.. then i thought of how cool it would be to have a close friend of yours who died.. then i would be so sad.. crying.. shocked.. when i knew exactly how tt person died..
tts y i rejected someone who was very close to me.. somone i cared abt.. i shunned tt person away.. fraid tt i would someday do harm to tt person.."
"hm.. ok.. lemme tell u all the sick thots i've had since a long time..
i used to have this hamster.. and its like.. sometimes.. when i hold her.. i would have this sick feeling of anting to squeeze her until blood spurted out and her eyes poped out.. until her bones snapped and cracked.. and then i would let go off her.. coz i was scared that i really would do it.. there was this once.. when i really did try.. and then i saw her eyes sort of popping out then i freaked out.. then i put her back into the cage..
there was this period of time when i really wanted to kill someone.. and i had all the steps thot out.. and how i would hide the body.. and cover up my tracks..
sometimes.. i want to drop something which is labelled "poison" on it to a drink of my friends and tyhen see wad would happen to them.. then i thought of how cool it would be to have a close friend of yours who died.. then i would be so sad.. crying.. shocked.. when i knew exactly how tt person died..
tts y i rejected someone who was very close to me.. somone i cared abt.. i shunned tt person away.. fraid tt i would someday do harm to tt person.."
i have no social life..
... amaths test coming.. and out of 10 log Qns.. i can only do 2 Qns.. by which one of them i got the correct answer only after 3 tries.. tt sux.. i suck at amaths.. ... shit.. i'm gonna flunk it.. pls god.. dun flunk my amaths.. pls..
Friday, December 10, 2004
i cut my hair.. 3 days ago.. and it looks like shit.. then my mum practically nagged at the jean yip pple for doing such a bad job on my fringe.. yeah.. my fringe.. I HAVE A FREAKING FRINGE.. coz my mum wanted me to have one..
i look super sucky.. so they told me to come back yesterday..
i did.. and guess wad.. a shuai ge hairstylist was there.. i almost died.. .. its like.. he also had this really cool hairstyle.. like toro's hairstyle.. you know.. the one which is spiked up a bit.. then the hair a bit longer than usual guy hairstyle.. k lah.. i suck at describing hairstlyes.. but it juz look like toro's one. ( i think)
and guess wad he was doing???? HE WAS STARING AT MY UGLY FRINGE..!!!!!!!!! *sobs*
i could have juz died there lor.. ... then later.. the lady came and then was trying to undo the damage.. he kept coming over to look at my hair.. (or maybe he was juz checking whether his hairstyle was still nice or not..)
then he look liao.. then would go away.. (ithink he see my hairstlye.. then wanna laugh.. but cannot laugh in front of me so he move away to laugh..)
then the lady say she'll straighten up my fringe for me.. then she call the guy.. the guy go and put this plastic cape around me and then he applied this paste onto my fringe.. then finish lliao then he walk away..
then they wash off my hair after 10 mins.. then put conditioner on fringe for 10 mins.. then wash off.. then went to dry my hair.. at first is this 'jie jie' who come and dry my hair.. then the guy also join in in drying my hair.. then its like got 2 pple drying my hair lor..
after a while.. the 'jie jie' go liao.. only left him drying my hair.. then he said smth.. i thothe toking to the 'jie jie'.. and i wasnt wearing my specs.. so i couldnt see thru the mirror whether he was toking to me or not.. its was only when he repeated wad he said the second then i realised he was toking to me.. then it like i damn paiseh.. then iwas like going.. 'huh'.. then he repeated the third time.. " is it too hot?' then i like u know.. damn paiseh and said no..
after my hair dry.. the fringe was straighter.. then the lady came back and made my fringe bigger.. then the guy come and look again.. ... wad the hell.. STOP STARING AT MY UGLY FRINGE!!!
he muz have thot tt i was some really uncool person who has absolutely no sense of stlye when i comes to hair.. coz i actually allowed my mum to convince me to cut a frigging fringe which is so out-dated and ugly..
then when finish liao.. i got up.. then i kept pushing my fringe up.. my mum was toking to the hairdresser.. then she turned around.. and pushed my fringe down.. then when she turn around again.. i pushed it up again.. and the shuai ge was looking at me (or my hair) all that time.. dotdotdot..
and i wasnt wearing my specs all the while HE was doing my hair.. ARGH!! I WANT CONTACT LENSES!!!.. (and all the while i was drooling over tt guy.. i completely forgot about CH.. haha.. he defintely has a better hairstlye that CH.. *grins*)
god.. im such a loser when it comes to my love life.. *sighs*..
i look super sucky.. so they told me to come back yesterday..
i did.. and guess wad.. a shuai ge hairstylist was there.. i almost died.. .. its like.. he also had this really cool hairstyle.. like toro's hairstyle.. you know.. the one which is spiked up a bit.. then the hair a bit longer than usual guy hairstyle.. k lah.. i suck at describing hairstlyes.. but it juz look like toro's one. ( i think)
and guess wad he was doing???? HE WAS STARING AT MY UGLY FRINGE..!!!!!!!!! *sobs*
i could have juz died there lor.. ... then later.. the lady came and then was trying to undo the damage.. he kept coming over to look at my hair.. (or maybe he was juz checking whether his hairstyle was still nice or not..)
then he look liao.. then would go away.. (ithink he see my hairstlye.. then wanna laugh.. but cannot laugh in front of me so he move away to laugh..)
then the lady say she'll straighten up my fringe for me.. then she call the guy.. the guy go and put this plastic cape around me and then he applied this paste onto my fringe.. then finish lliao then he walk away..
then they wash off my hair after 10 mins.. then put conditioner on fringe for 10 mins.. then wash off.. then went to dry my hair.. at first is this 'jie jie' who come and dry my hair.. then the guy also join in in drying my hair.. then its like got 2 pple drying my hair lor..
after a while.. the 'jie jie' go liao.. only left him drying my hair.. then he said smth.. i thothe toking to the 'jie jie'.. and i wasnt wearing my specs.. so i couldnt see thru the mirror whether he was toking to me or not.. its was only when he repeated wad he said the second then i realised he was toking to me.. then it like i damn paiseh.. then iwas like going.. 'huh'.. then he repeated the third time.. " is it too hot?' then i like u know.. damn paiseh and said no..
after my hair dry.. the fringe was straighter.. then the lady came back and made my fringe bigger.. then the guy come and look again.. ... wad the hell.. STOP STARING AT MY UGLY FRINGE!!!
he muz have thot tt i was some really uncool person who has absolutely no sense of stlye when i comes to hair.. coz i actually allowed my mum to convince me to cut a frigging fringe which is so out-dated and ugly..
then when finish liao.. i got up.. then i kept pushing my fringe up.. my mum was toking to the hairdresser.. then she turned around.. and pushed my fringe down.. then when she turn around again.. i pushed it up again.. and the shuai ge was looking at me (or my hair) all that time.. dotdotdot..
and i wasnt wearing my specs all the while HE was doing my hair.. ARGH!! I WANT CONTACT LENSES!!!.. (and all the while i was drooling over tt guy.. i completely forgot about CH.. haha.. he defintely has a better hairstlye that CH.. *grins*)
god.. im such a loser when it comes to my love life.. *sighs*..