i am paranoid and overly possesive..

i suck..

anyway.. i think im having another cold war with sreyansh.. hmph.. i think it started last wednesday.. when the books were on display..

i was looking thru this art book (as usual) then sre was like asking me to faster coz we were going out to eat lunch.. and we were also waiting for dhruv and kel vin.. so basically i was time.. then he whacked me hard on the arm.. coz he usually does tt.. i ginored him.. but he did it again.. harder.. and it was very the pain lor..

so i stopped reading and glared at him.. and usually.. he would laugh ad then say ok ok and stop it.. but this time.. he actually said wad? wad? wanna fight argh?.. and it was his fault lor.. and he did it right in front of the book uncle.. wah lao..

then on thursday.. i was feeling moody.. b coz of a series of things which i do not wish to elaborate.. anyway.. i was feeling quite bad liao.. then sre came along and wanted oe of the metal paper clip which i had straightened out.. when i didnt give it to him.. he offered to pay for him..

after spending 3 yrs with him.. didnt he know tt i wasnt a money person? he actually thot tt i wanted his money.. all b coz of a paper clip.. he oofered 40cents for a paper clip.. wad the hell.. i was so hurt by tt.. he didnt know me.. he didnt..

so naturally i rejected his offer.. then he juz said wahlao and stuff.. then it was like very noisy.. and by straightening out those paper clips i was actually having some quiet time to myself.. trying to sort my thoughts out.. trying to calm myself down and not have a emotioanl breakdown.. and here sre comes and destryoys it.. DESTROYS it..

then i ask him to go away.. and he said not happy argh? i like standing here..

and then.. well.. i started crying..

as in the tears roll down kind of crying.. but it was quite a lot liao lah.. and i was feeling very sad.. and very moody..

no one noticed me crying.. until my partner saw and said kathy crying liao lah.. go away lah..

and do u know wad he said? cry then cry lah.. s always shed crocodile tears..

WAD THE FCUK? SREYANSH DO U KNOW HOW HURTFUL TT COMMENT WAS??? I DONT SHED CROCODILE TEARS.. I AM NOT TT SHALLOW.. DO U KNOW ME WELL ENUFF? no u dont.. u dont at all..

... maybe im over reacting (as always).. but.. u have nv said such things b4.. and it was only recently u've been calling me fat in public.. ok.. i am fat.. but u dun need to annouce it to the whole wide world when we're crossing the world.. its damn embarrassing.. and.. its hurtful too..

and the prob is.. now.. i nv know when u're joking or when u're not..

i nv do..