...
i wanna say smth really badly now..
but i cant say it here..
coz its really insensitive..
..
i feel like crying now..
and there's no one i can call
coz i rejected them all
when they tried to keep in contact
i brushed them away
with homework as an excuse..
now
i can only say this in code..
ok.. maybe not..
damnit..
i feel like screaming..
and crying all at the same time..
coz i've suddenly lost all hope..
every
single
hope
is now all gone..
i have no motivation no longer..
because i know wad i truly am

i am a pariah
with no talents whatsoever

now leave me alone..
this is the uptmost truth
and nth but the truth

so stop telling me its not
because it is

and dun bullshit to me abt wadever fucking fashion show i did..
coz tt doesnt count in Os..
it doesnt..
and i am not artistic
its juz tt u pple dun know how to see art
and im not fucking creative..
the are pple in our class even more talented..
even more artiscally talented..
go appreciate them
coz they are smarter than me
coz they are better looking than me
i dun care

i really fucking dun care

b coz no matter wadever fucking thing i do
it doesnt count

doesnt it always happen this way to the ugly fat girl?

well
FACE IT

it does.